Today I was a human hose pipe. Maybe it’s part of the process? My body is ridding itself of toxins so perhaps it is also starting to release the emotional/mental toxins too? I know these can be just as bas as physical toxins. Anyway, tonight I am tired. But it’s not a physical tiredness, it’s an emotional one. I feel a bit drained.
It was also a day of some revelations. I’m not as busy at work as I would like to be and I have been blaming everything and everyone else, except me. Today, I remembered that the outer environment is a reflection of the inner environment. So it’s nobody’s fault that things aren’t working, except mine. It was good to recognise this and I talked to my boss and we’ve nutted out a plan to get me (and my head) back in the game. I had another revelation that I don’t miss food. I only miss it in the social context. I’m really starting to get used to just not having it and being totally fine. I’m curious to see what happens when I start eating food again.